Chapter 1: The Misguided Question

During my high school years, I confided in a physician about my mental health struggles.

The very first inquiry from the doctor was, "Do you have thoughts of self-harm?" This question sparked my anger. I wasn’t seeking help to discuss my desire to hurt myself; rather, I was grappling with feelings of wanting to lash out at others. Perhaps this was a defense mechanism kicking into high gear.

This feeling was not unfamiliar to me; I had harbored such thoughts since childhood. Whenever I encountered bullying or felt oppressed, my instinct was to retaliate verbally. As I matured, those verbal altercations escalated into physical confrontations. By the time I was ten, I had instigated numerous fistfights after trading insults. My smaller stature often caught others off-guard, enabling me to target vulnerable areas effectively. And yes, I emerged victorious from many of those encounters.

A particularly vivid memory involves a dinner gathering at a friend's house when I was around ten. That was my awakening to the fact that friendships do not transfer from parent to child.

My parents were acquaintances with the hosts, who also had children my age. Somehow, the adults believed their connections would naturally extend to us. I hope they came to realize how mistaken they were.

Under this misguided belief, the hosts segregated all the children into one part of their home. I understood their intent; they wanted to enjoy adult conversation without the distraction of their kids. However, any initial enthusiasm I had to bond with my peers quickly vanished. Despite sharing the same age, we had no common interests.

In this group were a few girls, and they quickly demonstrated their bully tendencies. They didn’t just verbally taunt me; they included the daughters of another couple who were also attending. My past interactions with those girls had been uneventful, but the newcomers pushed me towards physical aggression.

The ringleader of this bullying cohort constantly targeted me and needed to be confronted. I distinctly remember lunging at her with the intent to retaliate.

What do you think happened next?

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Chapter 2: Exploring the Impact of Bullying

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